wonderment about wishful wanting

I wonder about a lot of things.
Life.
Living.
True Happiness.
Death.
Love.
Pursuing "whateva" it is that makes me happy.
Then I think of you.
I want to be so much more than the down-the-drain-half-slept dream.
I want to be more than just a "maybe" or a "shoulda, woulda, coulda".
I want to be a reality.
Responsible for a heart.
I wonder if I can be these things for you.
i want to grow up so that i can be I and so that you can be with Me.
I want to be the romantic rain on your window payne reflecting the street lights.
I want to make you wonder.
I want to love.
You.