Brutal Relief

Ok, if this seems to go all over the place, try to keep up with me. It's a blog, so I'm putting what i feel out here on my site.
bear with me.

What do you do when your feelings get twisted up and balled up inside of you?
Like that failed history test, balled and twisted in the trashcan?
These twisted up emotions ignite so many questions inside of you, and they pull and twist and drag you so that you dont want to move; you're afraid of the consequence.
So you become complacent.
And the answers to your questions are right there in front of you, staring you in the conscience, and you stare back; but eventually the truth becomes too taunting and your stare becomes a vengeful glare.
You no longer yearn for that four letter word or three letter phrase, but for that long-soul commitment that will encompass your heart and protect your eyes from the unwelcomed ache its seen its insides go through.
But you're afraid to look for that so you stay complacent.
What do you do?
And at these points in your life it's not about love, it's about living.
But what do you have to live for?
You.
Don't be afraid anymore.
The truth may hurt but it's only for the best and the purity of yourself as a collective being.
Don't wait on the love of someone else to validate your self-love, self-worth, and self-beauty.
When someone sees that you validate yourself, they'll be willing to stand and support you and love you as you are.
Remember to grow as you are, even if you change as you are.
It's only temporary, so endure the pain.